Archive for November, 2012

today was a difficult day.

it started with me taking one of my dear friends here in haiti to the airport as she is leaving haiti.  her term here is finished and she is going home to a wonderful job and great family and friends.  i am excited for her, but feel like there will be an emptiness in my heart.  we will remain friends, but i can’t just text her to share something funny about my day or have her over for taco’s.

our program at heartline truly feels to me like an oasis in the middle of chaos.  the women we see every week come faithfully, they built friendships.  we see success in the fat little babies who graduate at 6 months old.

today the brokenness of this world felt extremely heavy.

one of our moms is so young.  so beaten down.  she is 16 years old.  it was not her choice to have sex.

we spoke with a mother of 7 who is pregnant again.  she has way too many risk factors to deliver with us and needs a higher level of care.  i hope she will do the necessary follow-up so that she will live through this pregnancy and not leave her children orphans.

another mom came with her little 3 month old and just shared that she couldn’t go on anymore.  she didn’t have the resources to care for her.  she cried.  my heart aches.

the stories go on.  you can read a bit more here. http://livesayhaiti.blogspot.com/2012/11/help-our-hearts-to-hear-your-sound.html

there is a war going on between israel and palestine.

there is scandal over a general and his biographer.

there is national debt.

there is brokenness.

tonight i read this and it sums up exactly how my heart feels tonight, “our souls are wired for what we will never enjoy until Eden is restored in the new heaven and earth.  we are built with a distant memory of Eden.”

come Lord, Jesus come.


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this is one of our mama’s with her two little ones.

her husband died when she was pregnant with her last child.

her little two year old den-den came with her to program a few weeks ago with a severely burned hand.  little ones put their hands, feet, faces in hot open pots here all the time.

there was something super special about this little guy.

he had such personality.

he enduring super strong when i cleaned his burn.

everytime he came for a dressing change he would ask that we put a glove on his other hand when we were putting on our gloves.  he always wanted a balloon made from gloves, he wanted candy, normal little kid stuff.  but he just had such a hint of intelligence.

at one of our dressing changes, his mom started talking about how she was probably going to give him to someone who had asked for him.  WHAT??  my mind can’t even understand that.  i questioned her, who was this someone, a family member, an aunt, a cousin?  no.  just someone who said they would send him to school.  she doesn’t have the money to send him to school.

my first response is to be angry with a mother who would dare give her child away.

my second response is to step back and even try to imagine being in her place after losing her husband and not being able to provide for her children yet wanting to best for him.

i don’t always have the words.

i hardly ever understand.

i pray this little one is able to stay with his family.




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a near miss.

a near miss – a near miss is an unplanned event that did not result in injury, illness, or damage – but had the potential to do so. (from wikipeida of course!)

today we truly had a near miss at one of our deliveries.

we had a very sweet young mama come in and deliver today. she came to maternity almost complete and had probably labored alone most of the night. she is shy and timid and we hoped to support and encourage her through her labor.

all went amazingly well. i was grateful.

tara (one of the others who works with heartline) went to scoot the baby up a bit more onto moms tummy after delivery and then all of the sudden, said “oh, no!!” i looked and there was a loose cord and we had not cut the cord yet. it took me about a second to realize that meant that the cord to the baby would also have been bleeding. i immediately grabbed the baby and clamped with my fingers the umbilicus and the cord that was bleeding. wini (a nurse who works with heartline) immediately grabbed a clamp and we clamped the babies cord. all was fine. he bled minimally. that is a completely crazy thing, a cord avulsion. for no reason the cord basically snaps at a weak point leaving the baby to bleed unless you clamp the cord.

scary. that was a near miss.

i am super glad this mama delivered with us and not at home without a trained attendant as so many women here in haiti do.

safe places to deliver babies are really important.

while i was looking up information about cord avulsions i read this comment about the stage of labor between the baby and the placenta coming –

“This indeed is the unforgiving stage of labor, and in it there lurks more unheralded treachery than in both the other stages combined. The normal case can, within a minute, become abnormal and successful delivery can turn swiftly to disaster.”

our delivery could have turned into a disaster. or the cord could have broken in the weak place before delivery and we wouldn’t have been able to do anything about it. if you prayed for our sweet mama today, your prayers were answered and she had a healthy beautiful baby boy. (with the cutest fat cheeks i have seen in a while!)

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