Archive for November, 2010

Rest in the time of Cholera

The Lord is my shepherd,

I shall not want.  

He makes me lie down in green pastures; 

He leads me beside quiet waters.  

He restores my soul; 

He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.

Psalm 23

This psalm is such a source of strength and peace for me.  There is a song that is basically the words of this psalm that I listened to over and over again after the earthquake in Jan.  One of the reasons I love scriptures is its ability to stand out and teach you different things depending on what is going on in your life, because a different part of this psalm speaks to me now than what spoke to me in January.

Right now the idea that stands out so strongly to me is, 

He MAKES me lie down in green pastures.  He RESTORES my soul.


From a very young age, I have seriously pushed myself.  I have been one who likes to have 12 million things going on and different projects and ideas that I am working on.  Since this summer my life has been significantly different from that norm.  I feel so strongly that the Lord was bringing me into a time of rest and restoration.  He has been MAKING me lie down.  Sometimes I feel the Lord does that, He MAKES us do things that possibly we would not be willing to do on our own.  I relate it to when you say to a dog to SIT and they don’t listen and at times then you have to go and put your hand on them and force them into obedience.  The Lord has done that for me recently.  He has said, lie down and enjoy this green pasture.

This year without a doubt has been one of the most challenging of my life.  I have seen and experienced things that I hope to never walk through again.  I have questioned God’s timing and goodness.  Over the last couple weeks I have seen God’s hand in a new way, a way that shows His goodness to me and I am so very grateful to Him for that.  I feel like He has brought me out of Haiti for this time to strengthen me and prepare me to once again serve.  I feel like He knew that I could not have handled the initial intenseness of this cholera epidemic and that He spared my heart.  At times I feel like that is an extremely selfish thing, but to come to a place of restoration, sometimes you have to be in green pastures instead of constantly living in the valley of the shadow of death.

Last week I was reading the gospel of Mark and read where Jesus and his disciples were back after having gone to serve and they were told “Come away by yourselves to a secluded place and rest a while.”  Shortly after reading that verse a friend called and asked me to go work in Haiti in an area that was severely overwhelmed with the cholera epidemic.  As you can imagine this whole situation in Haiti is extremely heartbreaking for me and I am having to try to be obedient to not just jump on a plane and go help.  After reading that verse, I knew the right thing was to tell my friend that I could not go at this time.

I do not know how long this season of rest and restoration is going to last.  I know that I am renewed in the idea that God is a good shepherd.  I believe with a stronger faith that He is guiding me and that I will not want.  I feel in many ways that my soul is being restored.  

I would ask you to pray.  Pray for the many organizations and people who are working tirelessly to try to fight this horrible epidemic of cholera in Haiti.  Pray for the families who have lost their brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, those mothers who have lost their children.

Pray for me as a discern and push into this time of rest and restoration and as I try to weigh that against the serious need and that I will know and be able to be obedient to know when I am able to once again go serve. 

Thank you so much for your friendship and support in my life.


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