i am a procrastinator.
it is true.
but this time leaving haiti feels different.
it isn’t only that i am procrastinating in my packing, it is that i just don’t want to do it.
i rolled a suitcase out to the living room tonight and almost cried.
i leave haiti soon and will be gone a longer period of time than i have been gone all year.
my heart is sad.
i am leaving my fiance.
i am leaving women who are nearing delivery, women i have watched develop in their pregnancies from their early weeks.
this living in two worlds is hard.
so i know it is more than just procrastination that is keeping me from packing.
it is also a bit of denial.
but it will get done.
i will go.
and i will return so soon. . .